I AM SO BORED TODAY!!! AH!!! I CAN KILL MYSELF!!!!

this morning went to hai sing to see the band peeps...they were doing marching...(long way to go with the marching ppl!)...anyway...left there early for my facial appointment...hai..painful sia during the extraction...but the rest was really relaxing..

=ok,,so after that i was at home...there is really nothing to do sia!...my internet connection keeps getting disconnected when it feels like it...and i am so restless also...

ok, so i have been thinking a lot...well..a lot in my head and its emotionally draining...yah..and i know most of u will say just let it go and not think about it...but how to? when its part of your emotions...sometimes i am this close(putting my thumb and index finger together) to just giving up everything... really there seems to be no more point in all these in life anymore...
trying to control myself..i dun want to do wad i used to do...its been about 5 weeks...and i am close to going back to it again...

k wadever...li am just in a mess now...and i hope it will all go away soon(well thats wad i have been hoping for a long time though)....but this feeling sucks...it really does