Hey all


As when i thought things were going better...sighs... i thought only...

It just showed that everyone was just putting up a faced front. The moment when u 'decided to change' was out of impulse... everyone was just fake..

Fake fake fake!

I know u wanted to change... but what is the point when you dont try to help urself after that moment of 'decision'...

U just end up wasting ur energy putting up a front of being good and of coz end up being looked at as a hypocrite.

I am just sick and tired of all these happening again... I just think we will all never work out ever.. All i get is hearing the same thing over and over again... i'm just irritated by repeated stuff when i already know them... u just think i am dumb eh...

All the big talk abt knowing everything and not being the example of what u preach... its just sad that u dont live the life of the values u carry... Chim rite? contradicts too.. but its true...

at times like these, i am honestly happy and await to go into army..Maybe it would be better for me too.. I have been hanging around here too long not doing anything and having to live through all these things... a good 7 weeks (except some weekends) away from such trouble.. being on my own to look after only...

I just feel kinda lost sometimes... how can i be a testimony when my life is like that?

Ergh.. i think i'll just stop here.. sorri if its just a halfway post...I have losts of things inside now and a bit hard to pracess everything out.. u can ask me personally...if anyone cares of coz...or if anyone reads my blog for the matter...

Hey all

Today met up with Esther in the morning for breakfast .. in the end we settled for Subway at cinelesiure... haha.. shared a foot long sandwich with a large coke... k, so she met her bf and i was on my own...

decided to go to city hall...walked to Esplanade first.. thought can have some quiet time to myself.. but of coz i got distracted by the music books.. haha... and yes i borrowed 2 from there.. one really thick book and one local one.. haha..

k, so walked to marina square and suntec in the hunt for my berms.. but to no avail again... oh wells... nvm...

Went down to Hai sing band...Its a new sem for everyone.. but everyone's already tired.. i guess thats normal.. last min homework, rushed projects, and most have refresher tests to sit for. not to mention study for them first... and so, the band's performance is affected too... well its not bad... i guess its just the tired bodies acting on the energy to play with everything they have? Well,band practice seemed a little agitated throughout... many were kinda stressed over parts...
Maybe just the wrong day to experience such a thing i guess? but well at least it surfaced out many hidden parts which were not worked put properly too...

To HSCband[if u're reading this]: u guys can do it... its a matter of putting the right focus on the right things at the right time. Distraction and the feeling of tiredness are hurdles which can be broken. If u are feeling tired, just push urself more, i guarentee u can do it.. then go home and rest that tired self after...give it all u got yea!?

Hey all..


Yes went to the Zoo with my family.... i havent gotten the pictures from my sis phone yet... soon... was fun.. haha... my sis and i bought t shirts at the zoo shop... similar but diff colour...

Today went with my mum to the John Little Expo Sale.. haha.. was looking for beige and black berm shorts....but dun have.. or ugly.. sighs...

but i did my shopping anyways.. haha...

"Vua-LA!"


1 Dunlop collared sports T, 2 valentino Ts, 2 Gioven kelvin Ts, 1 Gioven Kelvin jeans.... cool eh! haha....

ok.. satisfied with my buy today...onli i still havent gotten my 2 shorts! argh!

Hey all

last few days nth much though... usual weekend...

Today.. went for a haircut... i know i know... y cut my hair when i'm going to army and going to get it cut anyways rite? well my fringe was super super long, it made my hair messy and flat... so i had to do something...

well i think i over did my norm... haha.. not that bad though..


this...


There is more to that... i tried doing a double line cut,


k, it dint come out as what i expected though.. wanted a straight line... and when the my hairdresser cut it, it was curved! argh! nvm.. so i asked her to do a cover up of a smaller like abv.. well it looked better but the thinner line was not as thin either... sianz...


so this is what it looks like.. well it beats colouring my hair purple or yellow or blue like how ppl suggested... lol...

lucky it doesnt last very long either...

Oh,, my brown hair has mostly been cut off le.. sigh...nvm.. black is still healthy looking...

Tml, parents taking a day off and we r going to the zoo.. haha... yup we ar FOZ..friends of the Zoo... but havent gone for a super long time..and also it wont be crowded tml.. yea!.. haha..

Hey all

Last 3 days nothing much...

Wednesday i went out with my Army cell

Met with Wei Ming, Joey, Ren Hao, and Jensen...

Bowling at Ehub... 3 games is more than enough for me Manz! Became kinda sleepy after that.. haha

then We had lunch at Mr Chicken Rice... Watched "Get Smart" after that... Yawns... haha... i we almost falling asleep there haha


Thursday, Went for Hai Sing Band Prac... then lunch with Ee Hern and Wingsum

K, today, met with Aunty Gurly and uncle Joe.. Brought them out b4 i miss the chance b4 they leave for the US on sunday.. yupz..
went to china town, and city hall... nice day out altogether...

k, going out with my mum and sis to NUS for Drinks at a private club there tonight....

Hey all

Monday, HSC Cell Chalet....

Its been an exciting journey for all...

The plan for a a smooth start kinda became a hectic rush to begin..
reporting time was 930.

8am;\(sleeping in bed)- Phone rings..blured vision.[shawn tan calling] "jon, i got bad news, i have been called in, so cant be there'....

k, so i jumped out of bed.. and had to make my way to white sand to meet shawn at 8.30... quickly showered and decided to take my bike and cycled down.. With my bag of clothes and shoe bagg... Cycle down was horrendous! Y! coz my back wheel went flat!
So after much cycling effort, my shower the few min b4 was useless coz i was wet with sweat. haha..got the necessary stuff from shawn...the bike shop was closed also.. so had to walk with my bike.

Finally reached everyone reported... Rushed yes... but i think we still got stuff under control.

Started with games...with a "peek-a-boo' game and 'huay lai bah' was a good butt exercise.... haha...

Session one started.. i was a bit nervous abt it.. coz it was suppose to be led by shan for the Word...So with a few mins impromptu, joy led worship and i played on keys. And i did word... I think it was a really good start to the sessions...

Session 1 was good.. My attentive cell


This is one unglam pose!


Session 1 group.


k...

So we had an expriencial workshop planned next..
Walked through the book of exodus where the jew crossed the Red sea and towards the Promise Land.

Tied each other together- the live of bondage and suffering.




Of coz cant do without lunch too!


getting ready to be freed from 'Egypt'... Hmms.. I think Jing Xiang got distracted by the pool babes at the condo opposite..


Station 2.. E hub....
We actually went shopping...jing Xiang! the main food is more important first! the Chips can wait later! haha


Serious calculations and $$ decisions...


Joy- "I am a NTUC aunty!"


Station 3- Mt Sinai

Personal Reflections and Commandments


Station 4-The Physical test





EXPRESSIONS-haha..
Winnie:I see my future husband....Joelle:I feel lke wacking someone with a bottle now....Teng hua:(i personally have no idea what expression is that abt)....Cavell:if i give TH a elbow nudge, wonder what happens....Choon Gui:Emoing....Jon Siow:Weahweah, i want my mummy!


Carried on the walk


"I am an optimist! we will get there"


and Finally after 2hr 45min of walking and experiencing different things

The Promise Land-(joy on cam)



After the workshop, it was Free time and setting up the BBQ.

We are all cups labled with our names.. Only waiting to be filled


[Joni] =]


THE BBQ


Charmy joined us after



The night session was led by Joachim who came later.. Was good session and lost of personal responses and edifications.. and even 1 salvation...

The rest of the night was on our own.. games, chit chat, sleep, PS2, majong, BBQ round 2, singing etc...

Wanna thank everyone for making this event a good one..

Shawn-for pushing the planning. too bad u couldnt join us for the day activities but thanks again
Joy- for running the events with me and making mutal dicisions along the way. ur heart for the ppl too
Clarissa- our Chalet Tresurer for chasing ppl for $$

Cell potentials(for ur extended support to running running everything)
Tang Hua, Christabel, Renee, Cavell

The Cell for Coming[even if u came for a short while] or else there wont be this event
Jon Siow, Gordon, Winnie, Jing Xiang, Leon, dao Hong, Choon Gui, Samuel, Joelle, Wei Liang, sarah, Jethro(pls dun sprain ur leg again), Jason, Wei Yang and if i forgot to put ur name here..ur includd too

Those hu couldnt come for some reason...

Charmaine Cheang for ur support and Spiritual guidiance

Jochim for coming to speak for our night session and guidiance..

Yupz! it was a good chalet !

Hey all


had my Mum's cousin's wedding today!

Congrats Aunty Jaqui and Andy!

yup.. had it at THE LAWN at Raffles Hotel.. nice outdoor evening wedding.. some photos...

Too bad no pic of the groom... he wore his traditional scottish outfit.. kilt and all... kinda cool! all the family guys in "skirts"...

As u can tell my hair usually suck.. i think i look better in shorter hair... and of coz cut down in the fat...
Pic with Sis, Aunti jaqui and i


Darn, name spelt wrongly... nvm.. my other uncle Jonathan was spelt like that too..


My cutie 2nd cousins...


Shawn and JD... My american cousins.. Guys, meet "The charmer" and "Mr Cute"


Went to the Loof opposite Raffles Hotel after.. of coz only the legal ones went... goot time of chit chat, drinks and roof top view..

Candid Pic of me and Auntie Gurlie..(mum of the 2 boys abv





yup...




Nice wedding altogether.... Kinda tired... last night stayed out till 3+am . saw Andy and his gang... darn too bad dint take a pic with him.. haha...(if ur reading this, PICTURE NEXT TIME YEA!).. reached home at 3.30 and slept at 4.. woke up at 9am.. haha...

Tonight had a little too much to drink also..opps... ok, i am not drunk...


Seems like ppl dont read my blog lehs... not much reponse on my tag board abt my previous posts... haha.. oh wells...

I NEED A HOLIDAY!

Hey all...

I was just thinking abt life again....call me emo all u want,... but i was just reflecting abt some stuff...

Did i mature too fast in my teens? well my main thoughts are abt friends.


I must admit, i was the smart one when i was in my earli years.. growing up at 11 and 12 years old... At that age, if u behaved like ur 18 or even 21, u had the attention from everyone. adults would think u were very bright, and even from ur own frens who would look up to u coz u knew more then them.

Did i take it too far? growing up in my teen years, i was known to be the serious one. Very textbook based and very Mummy's boy.
I prefered to listen to adults conversations rather then join in with the kids in the room during parties. i found it more interesting to study stuff more than just play..

Dont get me wrong, i did have my share of play times.. soccer with my god-bro along the corridor... collecting tamiya cars... just phases of time and interests.

But my "maturity' seem to have brought me to a place of social neglegence. not to people in general but people of my age and generation. As a result, i find myself in places where i am asked to lead... its a good thing though... leading my CCAS (scouts in primary school and Band in sec sch) and other stuff in school like head prefect in pri-sch, class reps, blah blah..

Really, it helped me grow more in my leadership and mangement.
But it also made me more mature.. forced to, in a certain extent. U had to be the cream above others, the role model, the example..well u get what i mean...And what happens, i found myself still mixing with ppl older than me.. I guess they seem to have what i was looking for or at least like what i was.

When secondary school came, life was refreshed from my primary school lifestyle. But i was still me. I was really busy then. Prefects' stuff, school work and of coz band. not to mention all my other commitments out of school also. it was like a 24/7 agenda to follow. And by then i had the apprciation for Band and classical music. Which now is what i am persuing as my future. But how often do u see or hear a 12 year old wanting to listen to a orchestra performance to learn from their performing techniques? that was me.

Now looking back at those times, i am happy i found what i love. I am happy with the things i have experienced. But did i forget to live my teenage-hood?

I guess i could say life really changed drastically for me when i left primary school. Things were different in secondary school.. U left behind ur best buddies in pri sch.. My 3 best buds Hwee Meng, Ivor and Shi Cai....one of which i bump into sometimes and talk to. and the other 2 which i totally lost contact. of coz the many other friends u had too.

And as u get older, u find that ppl are greatly influenced by friends and trends... But i guess as much as everyone is similar, i dint follow a lot. I dint play computer games like the other guys did/do. I dint follow the fashion trends..i had my onli sole trend(haha)... and this time in sec sch i dint have that many friends too. ppl i mixed with were band mates coz of similar interests.. mostly seniors and teachers. there again ppl of seniority.

graduating from sec sch, i aimed to find new friends.. JC life during my PAE was good.. i found ppl hu 'used their brains' a bit more of what i was looking for....sadly i dint continue in JC and went to poly.. not that my efforts were wasted but there was no chance for a deeper friendship there. Poly was 'great' in 50% in the sense of the word. I was part of a multi racial clique of 12 ppl. There again i planned to find friends. I did of coz.. my clique... but the lifestyle of poly wasnt really for me.. i just dint find myself able to click. not all ppl, but finding true friends there was tough, i just found many were just superficial. And of coz after my 1st yr exams i left.

And here i am...

as i prepare to enter NS in about 1 month. Hoping for true friendships again.

I really dont know anymore. Is it just me hu cant accept how ppl of my age and generation are? Y cant i click to my era?
I see some friends who come up to where i am at now but living that teenage life i kinda neglected.
Did i start off wrong in order to become right at the begining?

I started thinking a lot abt this and about friends. To think abt it, i am a loner ppl knows and works with... contradicts my own statement but thats kinda true. But i guess that is the result of how my teen years was developed.

I was talking to a friend about how many ppl are grouped as friends... unfortunatly in this era.. of coz not all reasons are wrong. But friends have similar personality, similar interests, calibre etc... I guess its been like that since a long time.
But sadly many or even majority have put in the points of physical similarities. Like looking the same. Similar race. similar family backgrounds.

Thats our world today.. Its difficult, yea i know too...being mixed race sometimes makes it harder to fit in as well...u have a trace of similar tradition like some others but ur not that true blood ppl mix with. U are kind of the exclusive one but to another extent u are excluded too. u just dont seem to have have what everyone has, or u have too much of what everyone is comfortable with.

being different is not always a bad thing... but there is a part where its bad anyways

Well thats my current thoughts and feelings now...again i clarify i am not emo-gonzales. just some personal thoughts which i want to share.

As of now i still dont know how i am going to solve this 'problem'. I cant turn back time to change my teen years. i have less than a year left as a teen. my other 6 years have gone to 'waste' in this particular area. But growing up still remains and still i seek that knowledge of being able to blend in with my generation..

Ppl, please do send me ur comments and thoughts on my tag bored k.. wanna know what ur thoughts are too..

hey all..

some dumb jokes..



Malaysian Ah Beng

Ah Beng bought a new mobile.
He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said,
'My Mobile No. Has changed. Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610'

Ah Beng: I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College.
Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No, he is not studying, they are studying him.

Ah Beng: Doctor, in my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng: Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.

Ah Beng: If I die, will u remarry?
Wife: No! I'll stay with my sister. But if I die will u remarry?
Ah Beng: No, I'll also stay with your sister.

Ah Beng: People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng: When I went to the Park today, everybody said, Oh GOD! U have come again.

Ah Beng complained to the police: 'Sir, all items are missing, except the TV in my house.'
Police: 'How the thief did not take TV?'
Ah Beng: 'I was watching TV news...'

Ah Beng comes back 2 his car & find a note saying 'Parking Fine'
He Writes a note and sticks it to a pole 'Thanks for compliment.'

How do you recognize Ah Beng in School?
He is the one who erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases the board.

Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and not on other.
So the man asked him why he did so. He replied that the weather forecast
announced that on one hand it would be cold and on the other hand it would be hot.

Ah Beng in a bar and his cellular phone rings. He picks it up and says 'Hello, how did you know I was here?'

Ah Beng: Why are all these people running?
Man - This is a race, the winner will get the cup
Ah Beng - If only the winner will get the cup, why others running?

Teacher: 'I killed a person' convert this sentence into future tense
Ah Beng: The future tense is 'u will go to jail'

Ah Beng told his servant: 'Go and water the plants!'
Servant: 'It's already raining.'
Ah Beng: 'So what? Take an umbrella and go.'

A man asked Ah Beng why Ahmad Badawi goes walking in the Evening and not in the morning.
Ah Beng replied, Ahmad Badawi is PM not AM


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k.. i'm kinda bored... tml i am meeting my kor Jason and his friend for dinner.. asking another friend of mine to jio along if he can... dinner and movie.... haha...

yawns...another boring day!....

Hey all

Today. had my music exam... ws ok.. dun really want to talk much abt it though.. haha...

Ok, now got that off my stresses.. chiong for NS le.... haha... lots of prep to do.. like exercising and ejoying myself man!

yea...still looking for a travel buddy lo... sianz... i really want to go on holiday for a short while.. 3 days also can...

Ooo.. next week is cell camp... quite excited for it.. pray that the signups will be good this sat...yup! its gonna be a blast!

Hi all..

Some local vids i found..

first.. a funny vid to prepare me for army.



this vid is a older.. but made into a cartoon version from hossan leong's talking cock in paliment..

Hey all

Our dear Elysia, known to us as Lynn, and to her students as Ms Lee.. is finally Married..Congrats to u lynn and bernard..




The teacher and the army guy.. haha..

good time to meet with my old collegues also.. Yup.. Samantha is becoming more like a maN! gosh! what is the polic doing to u!... Marc is his usual self bulling Lin-wei....haha


No cell today...happy Don could join us for service today... kinda bored now.. haha..

Hey all

National Band Competition balloting today...Went to ballot...it wasnt very stressful as the SYF ones...
sat with the Anglican band ppl also...

The order of appearence are as follows..


DAY 1 (12th July-sat)

PRIMARY SCHOOL DIVISION
1.Bukit Timah
2.Xing Nan

3RD DIVISION
1.Chua Chu Kang
2.Yishun Town
3.Cedar Girls'
4.Zhong Hua
5.Ngee Ann Poly
-INTERVAL-
6.Hai Sing Catholic
7.East Spring
8.Yishun
9.New Town
10.Pierce
11.Ahmad Ibrahim
-INTERVAL-
12.Evergreen
13.Hwa Chong
14.Yuan Ching
15.FuChun
16.JunYuan
17.Woodlands
18.Loyang
19.Kuo Chuan Presbyterian
20.Balestier Hill

-RESULTS-

1ST DIVISION
1.Millenia Institute
2.Temasek Poly
3.Orchid park
4.Tanjong Katong Girls'
5.Chung Cheng High Main
6.Geylang Methodist


DAY 2 (13th July-sunt)

2ND DIVISION
1.Anglican
2.Sembawang
3.Clementi Town
4.CHIJ St Nicholas Girls'
5.Fairfield Methodist
-INERVAL-
6.St Patricks
7.Unity
8.Compassvale
9.Crescent Girls'

OPEN DIVISION
1.Chung Cheng High Yishun
2.Singapore Mangement University
3.Anderson JC
4.Institue of Technical Education
5.Fajar
6.Sabaway Symphonic Winds
-INTERVAL-
7.Old Boys & Old Girls Band
8.Maris Stella Alumni
9.Saints Alumni
10.Marsiling Symphony
11.Meridian JC
12.ZhengHua


Yup.. out of my conductor's bands... its either the first or last band of the section.. haha...

Hey all,

i cant help but blog this....

i saw this on youtube...

just watch!!









yah... my friend said its over done.. well sort of la...


but just think about the TUNING!!!! gosh!...

like 2 long rows of horns! and so many flutes to tune lah!....
gosh.... too many of each... AND BASSOONS! WOW!!!

yah la... its more than getting NCOs both BM and DM together la..

haha...

fun to see some different things...


kk... today went to pick up my retainers from dentist... my speech is totally gone with that thing la!haha..then went down to help at Hai Sing Band...

Met my family in town for dinner.. just dinner then came home.. hought can go shopping lo.. but no time.. sighs...

Tml. big day for me... well for HSCband.. balloting for NBC... well. i did it for SYF le.. i'm not that anxious though...

well.. it doesnt matter which sequence of performance u are fitted into... u just need to do ur thing on stage and let the judges judge... 1st band, last band etc... no diff la...unles u can tell me that th judges will feel more generous in marks when its the last few bands.. then of coz we hope to be the last few.. which is totally impossible..

if u wanna play tatics then just hope that the band in just before u and after u dont screw u up by playing the same standard or better than u... Oh, and! if there are many other bands playing the same choice piece as u.. that would be sad la...

well.. all the best to me wheni pick the ballot.. no matter what happens... dont be swayed by positioning k.. its ur playing which matters anyway...Jia You...

Hey all

last few days, nth much has been going on..

monday night had electone prac... my Teachers grade exam is next tues and i have a feeling i am going to do badly le...

tuesday// woke up super late so just nice to get ready and make my way down to hai sing band prac.... nth much lo... came home and was online chatting throughout...

Wed... afternoon went for my driving lessons... ok la... what other newthings are there in driving? u just learn how to drive... i'll tell u if there is a module abt flying cars..

so i am here now... nth much.. just bored as usual and just cant wait for army... i dunno if i am saying this coz i cant wait to get in/.... i just want to quickly go in coz i have been waiting for so long le... argh!!! darn bored.. haha...


oks...at least the next 3-4 days will be busy days for me....

Hey all

last few days been busy with church and stuff...

so... i am kinda exhausted today...tonight have music lessons...

exams are jsut next week only! ah!! i am not ready!!!

ok.. so last night went to east coast beach for seafood dinner... yum yum.. hhaa/..

k.. actually nothing really much to blog abt now also.. haha...