hey all..its exactlly a week since i last blogged...k so exams are finally over....

well out of the 4 written papers i did..i think i will pass onli 1...haiz...and that POM....i am doomed....

so this week feels really long...coz its exam time lo...

k, so i start work this Friday! yea, relief teaching in my secondary school! cool rite? haha....

k show all a cool pic of halif, Ilah and me during our I&W project k.

Like it? haha...

so the last few days, nothing much happening...i have been using my head for a lot of things lo..squeezing my brain with info which never manage to stay in, thinking abt life, abt some other personal stuff... haiz....

u know wad i feel pretty unhappy within....dun get me wrong, i am not emo again...or at least i am not trying to be...
Recently had a conversation with someone and got me thinking about my own life....well its alright and stuff....for many it may seem pretty satisfactory...but it just feels wrong...like......erm......Be there at the wrong place at the wrong time...

yah,i wish i could really really believe things happen for a reason, but still my own feelings to how things are dont change...
ya so i am in poly and i am not enjoying it, and the acadamic side of it is not helping either...
k, so i made some nice frens which (is the positive side of it). but everything else is pretty much down the deep end...Is this really wad i want to do or coz its something my parents have their heart for me to do and maybe i a little in it. But m heart is for my music...
Which happens to not be doing too well lately either...

After putting braces early this yr, my playing on my bassoon is really bad, and things would change even after taking it out....if this is gone, wad else do i have.... My dream of doing a Career with smething i love is like detiorating lo...

So wad else, well these is bad enough i guess...so wad to do sia? frens can make u happy, but i think its really surface level unless the person knows me well to share with my personal thoughts.

For now, things just seem meaningless and with no Vision for me...