Hey all,

i was meaning to write here this afternoon again.. but i was out.. so nvm.. i shall do it now...
This post is not hinting on anything.. just a mere place for me to voice my thoughts out.


ok...so my feelings lately.. hmmz...i currently dont know where my heart is lately...i've been so busy with my music exams and concert. Been distracted a lot.

but of coz there is this infatuated side of me with 'u' slowly being engraved in. i dare say that its not like other puppy love kinds where i 'fall in love' so fast and it usually is quite ridiculous.

I not really sure how to put it bah...really mixed feelings.. i dont mean that i have mixed feelings about liking 'u'. its just that.. one one side, i'm kinda anxious and with this restless feeling, just waiting to explore more than just having this as a one sided affair.

But on the other hand, i'm thinking, whats the point.. am i going to be rejected again like the many others. is it worth it?


If i do express it to 'u',

result:
1.we live happily ever after
conculsion: =]
2.'u' reject me and imagined nth ever happened
conculsion: well i'll try harder? haha kidding.. but better than nothing.
3.'u' reject me and our normal friendship suffers coz likely u will avoid me making everything awkward.
conculsion: i'll be totally heart broken and likely also blame myself for ruining everything.


is it realy worth it? So will say just go and ask, u never know if it maybe a plus. But i really think that the thing that stinks is when u start to like a friend. coz things can turn out nasty and u end up losing a good friendship in the end..

another thought..I want to be loved and accepted for who i am... Sadly i think most ppl do go for the standards of looks and stuff.. yes i am guilty at that at times too. but i wish that ppl would also love and accept me for my looks and flaws. taking me as a whole for who i am, my strengths and weaknesses.
I think its important for ppl who are considering relationships or are in one to have lots of accomdate to each other's weaknesses and love them through it. of coz we can help each other to improve ourselves. but really enjoying every moment even if we are not perfect.



when will i ever get the chance to say that i care and want to be part of ur life. Am i ready to take the risk just for my feelings (of coz 'u' will be happy too) or just stay silent suffering inside so that we can stay cordial.

HOW!!!!


pls... ppl do comment or write on my tag board! who knows, u may even be the one i am talking about! and no, pls do not beg for the person's name.. i need advice!!