Hi all.. a while since

been pretty hectic lately and lots on my mind..

I wish things were better...

for those closer to me, u know i have been talking abt relationship and people a lot...i realised that though its hard to find the right person for me, its hard to even find the right friends...

i dont know manz...sometimes i just find that i am just wasting time with some people... i know we always say when things dont seem to be right, we have to look at ourselves before we judge others.. but then, i really think, sometimes its not me lehs.. y should i always accomodate to my friends..

dont get me wrong, i love my friends and i will do anything for them, but dont u think it should be 2 way too? sometimes i wish ppl also spare a thought for me? y is it always me for other people? i fall in the category of people too.. i want to be someone's friend too u know..

yah i know i sound emo now... but its just something i am getting a little irritated more than emo... coz its been a vicious cycle all the time.. it just stinks to always find that the same thing is happening to me over and over again.

i am not directly pointing at anyone by name here, so dunt suspect.. but of coz if u think ur guilty then i hope u understand how i feel too.

i am just irriated at the fact that people just like to toy around with other people's feelings and take advantage of their help... it hurts the heart a lot!...yah, ok..enough said, i guess most of u know what i am trying to say..

will update soon, hopefully when i am feeling better...