hey all

i had a restless night.... i decided not to have a late night so i went to lye on on my bed and try to sleep.. But i couldnt sleep, Kenrick was on my mind a lot...i just couldnt phantom the fact that there is a possiblility i am going to lose a friend in an unnatural way. for those hu dunno, Kenrick had a brain infection and was on MC for 3 months, unfortunately, his brain became stagnent. recently, and they gave him until 10am today or they will turn off the machine which is supporting his life

Remember i said i bought a book yesterday? yah, title is "The power of a praying teen" though i dint start to read it yet, i wanted to believe the title anyway.. so all i could do in my "cannot go to sleep mood" was just to pray... as i started, wait, i just dint know how to start.. i mean, we all wish for him to wake up but in my dwindling faith i though wad are the odds now...

I just lost a good buddy in June last year to a burst brain vessel coz of an inflamed sinusities tissue (the thing i am suffering from now[the inflamed tissue thingy]) anf of coz that totall freaked me off of coz, i mean something like that can happen to me! and within 6 months, another friend in a life-needing situation...

I thought long and hard.. and i just talked to God "and partial prayer"... I manly prayed for his family and for Kenrick too... it was tough to pray for this kind of things... I really hate it when something like this happens....

ok, i admit, i sort of argued with God y must someone of his age go through this now.. i mean he should live thorugh this experience, he is onli coming 18 and has a whole life ahead of him to influence and be influenced.

Today came and i was just as anxious. I decided to take the train today and managed to start reading my new book. covered the front part and the first module chapter. was really insightful... but Ken was still on the back of my mind.. 9 am passed and i thought ,"1 more hour left"...

at 10 there was still no news, no one called or smsed...rachel onli had news that he hasnt pulled through at 8 am.. i was getting worried...Ee hern went to see him at the hospital... and was updated a bit...
Ken's parents decided to delay the due time and is still not sure how long it would take.

I really wish i could feel for the parents, and many would not know what they are going through.. to have to sdee ur own son, ur flesh and blood lying there in a helpless state and no one can do anything but to hope he fights for his life.. wad more to consent to pulling the plug...

Its about 12noon now and i still havent got any news yet... my first lecture was horrid becaue i couldnt concentrate...and now in the lab blogging waiting for time to pass...

"Dear God, whatever that may happen today, i pray that u have the right and most promising plans for everyone. God, let your will be done. I pray for peace in the lives for Kenrick's family and friends as they are in this grieving situation. Father, let ur hand be upon the precious lives here..."