Hey all


As when i thought things were going better...sighs... i thought only...

It just showed that everyone was just putting up a faced front. The moment when u 'decided to change' was out of impulse... everyone was just fake..

Fake fake fake!

I know u wanted to change... but what is the point when you dont try to help urself after that moment of 'decision'...

U just end up wasting ur energy putting up a front of being good and of coz end up being looked at as a hypocrite.

I am just sick and tired of all these happening again... I just think we will all never work out ever.. All i get is hearing the same thing over and over again... i'm just irritated by repeated stuff when i already know them... u just think i am dumb eh...

All the big talk abt knowing everything and not being the example of what u preach... its just sad that u dont live the life of the values u carry... Chim rite? contradicts too.. but its true...

at times like these, i am honestly happy and await to go into army..Maybe it would be better for me too.. I have been hanging around here too long not doing anything and having to live through all these things... a good 7 weeks (except some weekends) away from such trouble.. being on my own to look after only...

I just feel kinda lost sometimes... how can i be a testimony when my life is like that?

Ergh.. i think i'll just stop here.. sorri if its just a halfway post...I have losts of things inside now and a bit hard to pracess everything out.. u can ask me personally...if anyone cares of coz...or if anyone reads my blog for the matter...