Hey all..

Its been a long time since i last blogged..

Hmmz..Nothing really very exciting has been happening though...work is as per normal i guess..I havent really spent a lot of time with my batch ppl lately.. we all have been busy with our own commitments and band schedules.. so hard to even have an afternoon with them. lately onl really busy with my alumni band.

The more i interact with people, i realised that beacuse of our local culture, we always fail to see the good side in things before pointing whats wrong. u kow its like that say in the army.. u can do 100 good things, but u'll be marked down for that 1 wrong move, and ur reputation is over..

Complaining so much and hoping that things will turn out ur way is just a mere route of being irritating. Sommore complain to people who got no influence in deciding things. what good is it? So if you are guilty, STOP!



yet again, i have fall short of bringing myself into that regular self-pity mode again and again. I just cant help myself sometimes.. when i am placed in situations where i am always in the losing end...

Sometimes i wonder why i'm put in a good environment where i just cant match up to it. To be honest, i like being in such areas, but my life generally just cant seem to be on par with them.

Maybe thats y i am trying so hard to be independent, yet working so hard to find close friends too... Both great to invest in but failing. Maybe i'm taking things to fast sometimes.. but i think i'm go in desperation to secure them.but on the other hand, i do wonder why i put in so much effort in friendship and stuff when its onli 1 way.. and after everything, i feel so used and unwanted coz i'm not treated in the same respect. Friends are so hard to come by nowadays, many just wants companions of their choice and be there for them, not there for u... Hmmz.. maybe i should stop being so nice to everyone.

I think i need to engrave the thought that life is really unfair.