Hey all

its amazing how the blog works... somewhere u can share life, events and advertise and also vent everything out. but u cannot say everything, coz sometimes info gets mis-interpreted and ends up in the knowledge of ppl you dont want to let known to. Much worse when it gets into the hands of your parent. What is the point? really its useless, coz they will never understand what their child goes through. there is so many things beyond what a parent sees, and its so much easier to comment and advice what to do and not to do...

If it were that easy, dont u think every child would have gone back to their parents for solace? well, i guess its not then. I say things on my blog so i can express myself. its my only avenue to let everything out. and no i am not going crazy even if u see my posts are eccentric at times.. I am much stronger a person than u think i am. i've survived all these emotions and events so far.. If not i'd probably have given up on life totally...

I think it is really unfair to judge someone assuming based on what u read or see, much more if u are not close to him and dont know him as a person.

I am writing this now because i hear false intepretation about me from people around. Do not assume how i feel. if u are concerned, ask me.. i am probably the only person who knows where which emotion is linked to.

thats just i want to clarify. Yes i am going through a really low and rough patch now. i dont deny it. from home, to work, my future, to my social life, my personal life as well. its a lot to handle especially when suddenly everything just took a turn against the wind. But that does not make me any less a person yea. i am still human and i live like the same Jon i usaully am, just a bit more stress in my head.

I really do appreciate those who have been with me through this. talked to me and just encouraged me. thank u all

Well, its less than a week to my bday party... all the prep is kinda done... yes i'm holding it at home... i do want this party, not to my expectation, but yea, its my 21st, how can i not have a party yea? only issue to it is, not many ppl are coming for the party... lol.. i've done enough chasing for attendance. so lets see how it goes...

well, hope it turns out ok yea.. will update after sat yeap!?

Ok, and my ORD fuction is tml! i have 3 more months in the army! wohoo!!