hi all...

I have black eye bags! i am tired lol.....have been sleeping late since sunday night...

yay, jun siang came back for a week...went to hang out with him just now, had dinner at TM..we almost dint get our chicken dish..haha...

ok anyway, i have lots to say, but just that i will end up offending ppl...so i shant...
all i will say is i just cant stand some ppl, who were frens(initially ok terms with) to suddenly give me attitude like i am some bad guy..PLS LAH, u expect ppl to read ur minds issit? if u not happy with me ,tell me right in the face...just give face make u look like some stupid idiot and think like u are so big, high and mighty and innocent lor...and obviously u are not...so dun need to try either..coz u cannot make it also...

wadever....

hi all...havent posted anything since sat...i am tired now..lack of sleep lol....well school started this week again...had a POM test today...ok lah not too bad...wasted my time doing all questions when onli 2 was needed...hai...nvm....

so wad have i been doing the last few days...hmm.. ok,sunday went out with my God bro and God sisters furniture shopping...was at Ikea ad Courts....quite fun lah....but so tired....went home past midnight...then slept at 1+ i think...hai...

monday came and met the guys at Bishan for breakfast...at at mos burger...ok, so the same same on mondays lor...ended last lecture at 8....decided to take the bus from Toa payoh instead of Bishan...so walked with Alicia to her block where the bus stop was also..and a long chat with her to...
K, monday also ended around 2 am for me...tired...

Tuesday, met everyone at YCK mrt at 930am...hai...disappointing stats results....k, after that we went to the library to "do" some "Studying" for POM test..ok lah i read a bit also bah....but inside the room we were like crapping a lot too..
k, went to have tea at toa payoh with ZX, Alicia, Jian Hui and Mel...then went home...slept around 230am also....

today, same same, met everyone at 930am at yck mrt...so had our POM test...and after that suppose to do Econs project...we ended everything at 1+....so went to plaza sing for lunch...ended up eating Long John Silver again...and of coz Fried Mars Bars..haha...ok, i am growing fat lah...
becoming a FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!FAT PIG!

went to hai sing to see the band again..and to finally collect my O level cert...another disappointing sight....lol..not the band(although u guys still need to work harder)..i mean my O level cert...

came home,showered, had dinner, played with the dogs and now sitting in front of this comp rotting and typing ....

I need some life and oommp! ok, not very happy lately lah...but trying to hide it away and not thinking about it..but i just want to be truely happy lah...

Hi all...well..yest was not such a boring day...the HSC flute section had a bbq downstairs my place..coz amanda stays here too..so i went down to KPO after my dinner...haha..i am so full..i dint really eat much there..ok...i did eat quite a bit..haha...

ok..so here are some of the photos taken by our Dear Halif during the bbq on monday with my poly mates....(erm..dun get confused..yest bbq is diff from monday!...in case u are the blur
type and dunno wds going on)


ok so this is where the BBQ was...


ok so the ambiance was pretty alright lah..too near to the HDB flats onli...


and some of the pre cooked food done by or MR tan Zong Xiong...haha..'



yupz...


Here is our life saver 'Zong Zong!" our master chef also...haha..


and ms Tarsheeni the posing as "Ms Vasantham Central"? hmmm..


ok..this pic...we were all looking to the side coz of a white and brown cat...well coz Preena is scared of cats... see her at the left of the pic on the bench? she screams like a siren alarming like a bomb threat...lol...loud!!!


ok, so when the rain simmered down we went to play ball and start the fire...and Ms Preena is still there looking out for the cat....seems like it was always attracted to us(coz of the food...or was it to preena?)


and EKA, hu came late with our drinks..coz he came back from overseas that day and kena caught for his illegal possesions..lol...still can pose! LOL...

Hey, went to hai Sing to help out with the marching today...ok lah..at least better than wed... yup..after than played on my bassoon for a while....

Went with Wei Xuan to BK at downtown to have lunch...helped him with his maths...hai...i also forgot a lot of stuff liao..haha...ok lah..today nothing much on for me...

term break is coming to an end! ah...Monday, back to school...hai,...dreading it already...

Hey ppl! ppl comment abt my posts and pictures in my comment slot k..haha...

I AM SO BORED TODAY!!! AH!!! I CAN KILL MYSELF!!!!

this morning went to hai sing to see the band peeps...they were doing marching...(long way to go with the marching ppl!)...anyway...left there early for my facial appointment...hai..painful sia during the extraction...but the rest was really relaxing..

=ok,,so after that i was at home...there is really nothing to do sia!...my internet connection keeps getting disconnected when it feels like it...and i am so restless also...

ok, so i have been thinking a lot...well..a lot in my head and its emotionally draining...yah..and i know most of u will say just let it go and not think about it...but how to? when its part of your emotions...sometimes i am this close(putting my thumb and index finger together) to just giving up everything... really there seems to be no more point in all these in life anymore...
trying to control myself..i dun want to do wad i used to do...its been about 5 weeks...and i am close to going back to it again...

k wadever...li am just in a mess now...and i hope it will all go away soon(well thats wad i have been hoping for a long time though)....but this feeling sucks...it really does

hey all...wel a lot happening over the last few days..but i wont really go into detail of all the events....

ok, so i have been eating a lot a lot a lot! i put on 2kg ...hmm.maybe after today more than that? haha...well..since last week was eating so much lah...soul garden dinner with the N1 peeps, then 2 lunches on one of the days, sunday had a "runion" lunch with my dad's siblings, and dinner on sunday..yesterday sunday, had the bbq with my class frens..lol....and today! went to chomp chomp at Serangoon Gardens....

ok, so yest we had the bbq at bishan "park"....not exactly a park to us lah..maybe to ZX! haha...ok.. so hailif and i went early to help ZX out first...the the rest came LATE! abt 5 +....haha.. we suroprised them with water bombs! haha...did really get them wet though..hai..nvm..
So things actually got worse coz it started to rain really heavy..well luckly i stopped..drizzled a little here and there once in a while....
ok...so i threw a saussage on Tim's white shirt...Coz u told me to bah! and wad i get back? a saussage, a fish ball(both dipped in satay sauce) on me...wads more? a cup of water on my bermudas...thats not all...and being wiped on my MR TIM KWA's hand filled with satay sauce...great....now my WHITE t shirt is ruined...just coz i stained a speck of oil on his t shirt ...hai....thanks tim =/ ....diao....
ok, soi have to agree that i was really emo throughout the whole bbq...sorri lah...but i am just being myself...and thats how i feel
ok, so most of the peeps left around 10...left ZX, Alicia, Mel, JH and me..hmm..the same group during the astro nite when playing Truth or dare...ok....yah something happen..but not going mention it..its stupid..haha...and i reached home passed midnight..
my skin is like all covered with rashes lo....coz i breath in too much of the bbq smoke...(FYI:i am allegic to smoke...it sounds dumb..but true..i get rashes)

Ok, so today came!
hmm..woke up past 10! ah!!! so tired lah...ok..so i went off in the afternoon...went to school first to get my books from my locker...there after went to AMK library to meet the guys to study...ok..so evening came and we went to chomp chomp..somewhere in Serangoon gardens...well los of food, lots of people and lots of RAIN FLIES!!! haha...one point of our dinner they just came all over us...was so hilarious! gene was like screaming and her hair was all over like a mad women! haha.. ok, so we had quite a spread of food too... Chilli-Stingray, Satay, hokkien mee, seafood pizza, pork chop meal, chee quay, and a big glass of sugar cane drink!
there after we took a long walk to get to another bus stop to go to Bishan interchange, haha...we got distracted by a playground on the way and climbed a pyramid net...ok.thereafter came home straight...so now i'm home tired...and gues wad my rashes became worse...there was smoke all over at chomp chomp..aH!!! i am scratching all over...ok i shall try to stop!

went out again today..Met up with ZX, mel, gene first.... ok i was like super late...suppose to meet at 1130..but reached at 1210+ i think..sorri eh to keep u guys waiting..haha...

anyway...we went to have lunch at S11 at AMK..my teeth stil hurt after tightening it yesterday...

ok..so there after went to Jubilee Centre and watched movie...tarsh joined us also...yup! FANTASTIC 4! haha...ok lah the movie..imgine u can have all the 4 powers in one! power sia!

there after...took a bus to Sheng Siong at AMK. yup..did grocery shopping for the BBQ next monday...ok..so we were like super budget for the whole spending today coz not everyone was there to shop.. Alicia joined us a little later too..haha..

Ok so my job scope changed liao....from sausages to chicken wings..hmm..wonder which style marinate should i do...Honey-garlic or BBQ-honey?

Ok..so we finished our shopping and headed back to AMK station...i went with Alicia for dinner at Macs...yup had a nice conv with her...
ok.so i headed home from AMK about 7+...reached home quarter to 9...tired tired....

Ok this post is a continuation of the pervious post below k...so i can put in more other pics of the trip...

Ok so i was super sun burned after the trip ...especially on my face! i cant wear my specs also lor...pain pain....my uppeer back is all red too! haha... well..its was fun..wouldnt mind doing it again soon! haha.....ok so enjoy the rest of the other pics...(thay ar not in order of time k!) haha..well just see the pics lah!... haha









I just realised that Jonathan Goh is in almost all the pictures sia!..hai...so weird la u Jon Goh!...haha...







Oh well!...hope everyone enjoyed themselves....thanks Isaac for organising it!..i know its been a real tough time for u these many months..hang in there k...be strong and fight those infected cells away!!!! we are all behind u!

Ok...so i have more pics of the outing but lazy to upload liao...ask me if u want to see k! haha...

went to sentosa with my sec school class...so fun!!!! well 18 of us onli.. so the picture above was the few of us first hu met at VIVO...we went to Macs for Brunch and off we headed for SENTOSA!....ok, so it started to rain...dampened our spirits a little coz we wanted a nice day out at the beach...but anyways..we still went...took the train and then the mini bus to Siloso beach...it rained even heavier...well...

When it finally simmered down..forund a sheltered place to put our bags! te sun came up back again and....it was play time... everyone whipped off out shirts(of coz not the girls lah)...haha..and Felicia in her Bikini! lol....
Ok..so the rest joined us later in the afternoon... So it was volleyball, Freezebe, swimming, "drilling?" , and throwing ppl into the sea the whole afternoon!

yup..so a lot of pics taken through out...ok so finally u guys get to see my photos and some of my frens...ahem..i look very bad on picture! and its like...i think the camera is supper good lah...all my hidden pimples and spots can be seen sia...i look horrible in all the photos!...but nvm...


ok..so the next few pics are after the beach...we took after we showered and on the wAY back to VIVO...

yup...enjoy the pics...






Ok..i like the pic abv...the guys acting EMO....haha...execpt Jeremy sia..cover his face! lol


ok..the next pic also nice...good friends together onli derek trying to find himself into the picture!!!
so ppl let me intro my good friends to u...from left...
Isaac, Kai Deng, Alan(act Ah beng onli), Derek(trying to squeeze into the pic), Jonathan Goh(my table partner in class in sec school), and Jonathan OH(me!)
lol..i realised i am the onli one in white also..


Ok...so we went to soul garden for dinner at marina square..lol..lucky we made resevations....18 ppl sia! i saw the bill $412.10! lol...haha...well it was fun...4 steamboat pots..and lots and lots of food!!!! and of coz more pictures taken! so enjoy the rest of it..

its quarter to 7pm now... i havent slept since sat morning...Well, i went for the astronomy camp thingy... Met Halif at Tampines interchange and took 31... haha...we missed our first bus coz i was busy buying my curry puff and special Hainan Egg tart..lol...the bus finally came it took use about 40mins from tamp to east coast(outside VJC) hai....got a little irritted when we passed tenah merah and Bedok MRT...lol...we should have taken the train first if we knew the bus passed there! it would have saved us half the time.
When we finally got there...met the others (zong xiong, alicia, jian hui, melvin, gene and eka) yup...

the astronomy thingy was alright lah...the stars were so pretty! so nice...so romantic... so we saw jupiter and venus and lots of stars!...

Well i think 30 mins was spent in looking at the stars and the rest talking, eating, playing etc.haha...
So we walked Burger king for dinner(how interesting)....and went to macs twice to have supper and supper early breakfast...ok so i was really full...i think i shouldnt have taken the milo from Macs...ZX, halif and my stomach went quesy after that...haha...

Halif poor thing lah...fell ill half way through the night with fever...

Ok, so in between, we found a deflate air playground(the one where children would jump around at fun fairs.yah it was pretty cool(as in not warm) sitting on it. we played some games...Murderer(the squeeze hand one) haha in the dark! haha...hai.. so many times i kena die first...lol...ok and went to play Crocodile at the fitness corner...lol...(mel i dint mean to hug u de..i were pushing me off the board and i was falling off...so u were the onli thing i could hold on to! haha..dun get the wrong idea nia!)

Oh yeah there was this trampeline...ZX was like going crazy on it..we all lay there and he wa jumping..and we were like flying up and down ,...so fuN! haha.. then We had this truth or Dare game...of coz not much dares so everythng was truth...
SHH!!! we not suppose to say was we know...well suppose to forget abt it rite!...well wad ever is said there...will not and should not change a thing...its just getting to know us better k! u are all my dear friends. and i cherish u guys!

Ok can u not be so BO LIAO!!! its really irritating , childish and STUPID!!!!!!!!!

Ok..everyone! even to my friends, shall we please just stop all the cursing and stuff please... let this matter rest..i think it has gone a little too fast and far le...whether one is guilty or not, just leave it alone...i am really tired of being upset over this problem(which should never have happened!)

Yup, thanks for standing with me, coz its really sad to see someone using our friends names in vain... so wad is done is done, (though i dont fully agree with the language used and stuff(not that i've been totally innocent myself...) we cant change that anyways...

ok, just to let everyone know...whether people have personal grudges against u or not, its how they feel, dont bother about wad people feel about u...taking revenge or backstabbing will onli make it worse...thats life...really! so just face it...find friends and ppl hu will support u and stick with u...thats how u find friends... forcing relationships will not work, it makes ppl think u are despo...

So i hope everyone understands k...i would like to resume my blog as my personal space for me to write(and complains are for me to write also!)...its suppose to be a place where ppl can understand me better, comment on me and encourage me...SUPPOSE TO BE A NICE PLACE!!!!

Thanks for understanding!

[Joni]

hey all...

have been tired the last 2 days...preparing for Stats project, Account Show and Tell, EOC research/planning/speech...

Ok so yesterday...had I&W lesson, then stats tutorial....okok lah both...then had to stay back to do stats project...unfortunately couldnt finish it coz of some unsubmitted surveys... so, after that went off...took a bus with Timmi to Hougang mall. go pa tuo..lol..went walking around..then decided to go to Cafe Cartel for Tea...well.. i had a "Sinful" bitter choc cake...tim had a fried side dish patty...and lots of bread/Olive-oil..hehe

ok..so today came...tired lol...onli had POM tutorial...there after went to finish the stats prject and almost-done accounts show and tell project.

Hmm..the whole evening having mixed feelings...still pissed off by the person hu wrote all those dirty stuff on my tag board lah...really wan to kick his head sia...Its not funny, its childish and pointless...

something else happened also...rather not tok about it..but really dunno wad to feel. its this restless feeling in me of excitement, longing, happiness, but yet feeling sadness, "rejected"(maybe) and unsure...hai...i dunno...
[PPL DUN ASK ME WAD HAPPEN OK..ITS ONLI FOR e ONE(s) HU KNOW WAD I AM TAKIN ABOUT]
lol..forget it...its onli meant to be discussed by the ones whom i should discuss with.

Ok...i super need to prepare my EOF speech by tonight...although its onli on friday..but i am going to stay at my grandmother's house tml night and got no internet connection there..so cant do...sia....die die die die...i really dunno wad to talk about..and i cant find relevant statistics for it sia...

tired, tired....very tired...

Ok so yest was a full day for me...had the performance with west winds as guest band for Anderson sec band concert...not too bad bah..haha...

but the the tireness kicked in this morning....had to wake up early to set off to Ngee Ann to tutor the Bassoonist there...hai...i want more sleep..haha...there after went to school...
Met Alicia, Mel, zong xiong and Jian Hui...the 3 guys all last minute preparing for their Oral ICA today...haha...ironically today way like strip-shirt day...so many ppl wore strips lah..haha...that reminds me...my oral ICA is on friday...and i havent done my research yet..ahh!!!!

Ok..so now ar home...reached back at about 9.30pm...and i am thinking its going to be a real busy week for me....there's gonna be a lot of last minute work and projects to do sia!

hey all...

finally its friday! haha..well dunno if thats a good thing...lots coming up over the few days and week...

Well yest vesak day, went to watch Shrek 3...well it was pretty funny...I realised i have like watched 3 movies in 3 weeks...haha never done so many movies b4..and more good movies are like coming out soon bah..i am like going to be so broke sia...

Ok, so tml morning is orchestra prac..i seriously need to get a new reeed...my others died liao....And i have a concert to do on sunday! even worse sia...new reed the day b4 concert..sure sound bad!!! haha...