hey all...


monday was a pretty tiring day... was teaching from first period till the 2nd recess...dint have the mood to eat either....so stayed in the staff room marking...went to stand in for one of the teachers to give a class test. eveything ended on last period at 250pm...went down to the band to see the sec 1s after....

well..so i wont be working till term 4 which is in about a week+ time...so got more time to do wad ever rubbish stuff i need to do lo..

so today, tuesday, was suppose to be outing day! so met jian hui, alicia and halif at Pasir ris MRT....suppose to go Bladding lo..but guess wad...it was raining so heavy lo..so had lunch and took a bus to Downtown east and hanged at Mac Cafe....Tim met us after....

ok,..so when the rain simmered down, we walked to the beach....haiz...had to walk the whole 3 sections and to find out the bicycle shop was closed. saw the playgroud ad played there a bit...climbed the spider web.so walked to the 2nd section rented bicycles and blades.....k...So now everyone can blade and cycle lo! yay!!!

So here is a pic of us....oh! Tim was taking the PIC.....i will post the other picture with Tim in it soon k....when i get it...

so dinner was at White Sands KFC.Went to take Neo Prints.haha.its a totally girl world manz..us guys were super clueless abt wad was happening!... so Alicia accompanied me back coz she wanted to take 59 from my place lo....

k...tired...

nites...

Hey all....

i started working since friday....yup since i have an almost 2 month holiday lo..so got a job as a stand in teacher back in my secondary school.... teaching Maths and English, and geog and music is necessary....friday was really tiring lo...ended school at 1230, did some marking and left at 1pm..

Met some band alumni seniors, Daniel, jie Ying, hui Zhen and hwee Lee at city hall..Went to KBox at marina square....hahas....daniel super high sia....wah Hui Zhen can really sing high ! nice voice too! after that went for dinner...

k..so sat morning had Alumni band Prac lo....I dint know there was a saxophone solo lo....caught me by surprise when i realised i was the onli one playing lo...haha...then went for lunch...Wei Jia and i were super late for Electone practice manz!

haha....k lo...so today, sunday, its evening le....finished up the last of my marking....so tml is another day in school....hope i survive manz! haha...wish me luck!

Gosh i think i am going emo sooN! ahh!!!

k...today went to run some errands then went home and got ready to go out...met Gene and Alicia at katib,.....Exercise time also...and to help me get my stress and Emoness out!

So we took a 2-round run around the track at yishun stadium for warm up...then went to the gym there....so many ppl lo..paiseh lo...i am like among the onli hu is the super unfit ones lo....haiz...yah fun also bah..i climbed 40 floors! haha and rowed 1200metres! hahah... k so after that showered and went to have dinner with Alicia..yups...then came home lo....

Practiced on the Saxophone for a while...hais...my sound is so airy, embrochure a bit off also bah...have to get my braces to adapt to it lo... (i regret putting braces!!!)

k..so i am becoming emo again....it sucks lo....i want to give up lo...give up everything! ...i think i said this many times bah..but i find it no point trying so hard and to work so hard for wad i wan and achieve when i simply still cant get lo... so wads the point in trying even... maybe i am also going the wrong way lo....someone pls encourage me and tell me the right way lo....
seems like wad i enjoy is not wad is right for me lo..

k..so i am having really mixed feelings now...its messy and all over the place and i dunno how to sort them out also...
Ok enough of this....if u know how to encourage me, pls do k...if not dun make my feelings worse has it already is, and being played with....

hey all..its exactlly a week since i last blogged...k so exams are finally over....

well out of the 4 written papers i did..i think i will pass onli 1...haiz...and that POM....i am doomed....

so this week feels really long...coz its exam time lo...

k, so i start work this Friday! yea, relief teaching in my secondary school! cool rite? haha....

k show all a cool pic of halif, Ilah and me during our I&W project k.

Like it? haha...

so the last few days, nothing much happening...i have been using my head for a lot of things lo..squeezing my brain with info which never manage to stay in, thinking abt life, abt some other personal stuff... haiz....

u know wad i feel pretty unhappy within....dun get me wrong, i am not emo again...or at least i am not trying to be...
Recently had a conversation with someone and got me thinking about my own life....well its alright and stuff....for many it may seem pretty satisfactory...but it just feels wrong...like......erm......Be there at the wrong place at the wrong time...

yah,i wish i could really really believe things happen for a reason, but still my own feelings to how things are dont change...
ya so i am in poly and i am not enjoying it, and the acadamic side of it is not helping either...
k, so i made some nice frens which (is the positive side of it). but everything else is pretty much down the deep end...Is this really wad i want to do or coz its something my parents have their heart for me to do and maybe i a little in it. But m heart is for my music...
Which happens to not be doing too well lately either...

After putting braces early this yr, my playing on my bassoon is really bad, and things would change even after taking it out....if this is gone, wad else do i have.... My dream of doing a Career with smething i love is like detiorating lo...

So wad else, well these is bad enough i guess...so wad to do sia? frens can make u happy, but i think its really surface level unless the person knows me well to share with my personal thoughts.

For now, things just seem meaningless and with no Vision for me...

Hey all...

almost been a week since i last posted...coz have been real busy lo...haha..
Well u see my exams STARTS TML!!! GOSH!!! AND I STILL HAVE TIME TO BLOG NOW!!

so from last sunday...hmm

Sunday: morning..met Dickson and went for cell group. after that we went for lunch at White Sands lo...accompanies Dickson baack home and took a Bus to loyang point to meet my mum and sis to get groceries... k..so we went home andd got ready to go to my Grand Aunts's home...yup..nth much de lahz. quite sian also...ordered in Pizza hut for dinner at her place also...


Monday: Supose to meet for study... but Zong Xiong and I were the onli 2 first..so we went to Marina Square and had our brunch at Pizza Hut..(lol pizza hut the night b4 also lol)...yup..then Jian Hui and Gene joined us a bit later...
ok..so after lunch we proceeded to Esplanade library to study...Halif, Alicia and Melvin joined us later also..

studing....then..gene had to go so all of us sent her off downstairs except Mel(who looked after our bags) yup..then we decided to take a walk along the bay and walked to 1. Fulleton walk. there....yup...got back to the library(mel was thinking where we were lo)... went to marina square for dinner that evening,,,


Tuesday: went to meet Zong Xiong, Gene, Alicia adn Eka in school..we boked a room at the library the whole afternoon..so studied there... in the evening we went to a coffee shop behind Yishun Chong Pang...ate western food...not bad bah...
So went home that evening tired of coz...Dint realise WeiMing was in the bus until reached Tampines lo...haiz...Had a splitting headache the whole night...my stomach was supper quesy and really just wanted to throw up!

feel asleep on my desktop..but was awoken when my mum and is came home around 12+am....argh!! yah they had VIP seat tickets for Gwen Stefani's concert... hai..summore can but Tshirt of her face..!! argh!!!


Wed: Met halif at Pasir ris Library to study... yup..managed to finish a few papers lo...strange....i saw Carissa and the VJC couple at the library...same ppl who were at the airport studying overnight last friday...haha...

k so met my mum at 7pm at tamp..had dinner at soup restaurant...yay i got a nice Giodano T shirt...not bad lahz...and finally a new headset for my MP3.....


So now is thurday:I am going to meet halif at pasir ris Library soon...suppose to meet at 1030 lo,..but we both overslept..haha...so going soon...going to choing the last bit of econs b4 the paper tml!

I am so not prepared for the exams lo...Econs and accounts can lahz...POM a bit.... Statistics--NO!!! i dun even know wad that moudule is about lo..but i have to pas i dun wan to retain lo!!!!

hey all,

school is unofficialy out now...on my study break till my finals on friday...

did nothing much on national day....

friday came...got pissed off a bit during POM lecture..but nvm...i put it aside liao...those involved rleax k...its over..just put it aside and concentrate on exams...its mor impt.

so yesterday left school and went to sentosa for the zOne fun day..the place was all so packed! i took the bus instead of the train...walked all the way into tanjong beach..yupz had fun!
everything ended around 2+...the cell peeps went toplalwan beach after to swim...nice...yupz....k...so we showered and got ready to go off around 5.

Went back to pasir ris to have dinner at Lerk Thai with everyone then went home around 745..

here's the fun part...i met Dickson at 11pm at the airport terminal 2 for an overight study marathon...hahas...k ot really marathon la..so we went to starbucks and studied there...hmm..managed to write some of my notes and studied....Met carrisa there also..haha so happens she studies there every friday overnight...

k..so starbucks is alright to study lah..onli there was this man snoring there which was totaly irritating...he woke up chocking on his saliva and went back to sleep...but realising he was snoring..he covered a towel on his face! haha...hmm...suppose to mute his snoring...well... IT DINT!!!! his snoring was enhanced!!!

ok..so every few hours we both would just walk around the airport...prety quiet...just chatting lo...around 4am suddenly a big group of boys brigade guys appeared...like some treasure hunt..lols at 4am!!!

k..so we were totally distracted...so we decided to go to terminal 1..so no more sky train..took the bus shuttle there...well had a few options of deciding where to study..either the viewing bay or at popeye's chicken....went to popeye's coz brighter and no one there....view bay was alright lahs..but a bit too "romantic" for both of us! haha.....(PPL NO FUNNY THOUGHTS!!!)

k..so we left the airport at 7 i think..came home and slept for abt 5hrs....i am super tired now.but cant sleep bah..haha..

k! i can do it! i will study hard and do well!!!!

Hi all!

its national day...finally a holiday break! i super need tis! hehe...

well..i had my project presentation for I&W on tuesday..i think my group did pretty wells lo..haha..yupz...sad lo this week is the last week where we get to see our moudule tutors..
So we have been taking lots of photos around also..hahas..

well i dunno why..i woke up yest feeling very exhaused..as in really really really really exhausted.....something like....i dint sleep and took a 10 min nap in the night and woke up again....dunno lehs......coz i slept for abt 5+ hours bah....but i got up anyway for school..i was haing this splitting headache when i woke up also...

anyways, i took the bus and luckly got to sleep for abt an our on it...felt a bit better but still tired...
So we had lessons and make up lessons coz of today's holiday....finished our last lesson at abt 530...k..so we played a bad game of hide and seek...yah i think i feel a bit bad lahz...we dint have to do that lahz...

so we went to marina square, went to meet my mum, grandmother, uncle and sis for dinner, the others went to long john's for dinner... after i left for esplanade to walk around at the bay...and to take a look at the stage...

k..so my family wanted to go back...but i stayed on antmet with the guys..we sat at bay playing a game...haha....singing a song where every one had to guess the title and singer..haha..

abt 11pm., we prceeded home lor...

ok wells...time do pass fast when u enjoy it....

my first final exams is next friday! i am so not ready for it lehs!!! ahh!! STUDY SUDY STUDY!

Hey all!!!

I feel so happy today....hmm..but i actually dunno why...hahas....well...i am tried lahz...coz after last nite's FOP...woke up and left the house at 9 am today..to do the I&W project. but my spirit was pretty lifted...hmm..good lo

..had EOC-ICA4 today..hahas topic was supper weired..ranking on hu to save in a flight hostage scene..haha..

k then since econs was postponed today had 3 hours to finish up the project...and yes we did it! finished the project..

k,then went for AFA lecture..k i listened a bit..but turned off after a while..haha..

ok..so today was also our last day for EOC...so last time we get to see Mdm Goh...so we took a class pic...k..i look totally horrible as usuall.but nvm lahz...haha...and also among th few times where we got the whole class together too....

k so dun laugh at my face k


yes yes..i look funny hor...STOP LAUGHING!!!
OOI! i said stop laughing lo..not unny lehs.... i;m serioius lahz...stop it! hahahs...wah see now u making me laugh...u laugh supper funny lahz....wahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahah....

k...lame...haha...

Hi all...

I need to change...i really do....i have been too unhappy too much le.
ok went for FOP(festival of praise) today with Dickson...thanks for coming with me lo...sommore u were sick thats to someone..haha.....was totally cool..especially DELIRIOUS?! awesome man! ok...and yes..i need to walk in the right side of life again...too much wrong is making me unhappy....yupz..it ended at abt 11...got seprarated from dickson coz of the crowded bus..but finally met 2 buses away..haha...then took the train from city hall to tamp and went to MACs for supper..yup..nice chat all the way...yup..we both cabbed home..reached back abt 1am....yupz...

k..so if u think i am going to be the Holy molly type...nah...i wont..but i will be a better person..yupz....walking in a righteous manner k....hope all understands and supports me hor...haha...k..a bit complicated lahz...actually hor..not that complecated...i just want to change....being more serious in my life..

kk.so its 2.11am now... i am so totally going to sleep NOW! i have ICA4 for EOC tml..so i need my sleep lo! kk...nite all...

Feeling a bit emo now lo...dunno y...

love sucks

love is good
sometimes love sucks
right now love freakin sucks
love used to be good
love is what i saw in ur eyes
and heard in ur voice
i still see it
but now its covered
by the world
i love u
and always will
but i dont know if u love me
but right now
it feels like
u put a freakin
knife in my heart and twisted
i cut and i cut
just to feel the physical pain
i hate this
but i love u

Carrie Salazar(edited my [JONI])

hi all...

its thursday....this week has been pretty alright so far...just having my back pains again...

yes went to hai sing a while after doing I&W project..then met up with Charmaine for dinner and chat...lolz....yah so now blogging here..gene and alicia is "suppose" to be doing their I&W project...hmm..and i am here just to KPO...dun wan to go home just as yet..

okae... am bored also...i have to really start studying soon manz...my finals is in 2 weeks....gosh...and i am so not ready!