Hey all


here to update again.. i realised i havent written anything for a long long long long time.. just that i have been lazy to update... omg.. i hope i am not losing the passion the blog anymore..

ok so some updates since after my bday weekend party..

Nothing much have been happening at work.. the usual stuff though... parades, welcome ceremonies, and the botanical gardens performance. Well, this week went down to tekong for the BMT band auditions. nice to see some farmiliar faces there too...nice to be back there too...

My sats now are practically sold to the army to have NDP rehearsals.. but i force myself into going out at night with my frens till late.. hoping to get everything off my mind..

Well...emo stuff later, on the lighter side, i had a day out with my buddy esther on friday!

Haha.. planned to go to botanical gardens with lunch picnic, but an emergency cropped up with here family side, so i accompanied her to settled it.. but she still wanted to go to botanical gardens.. so we did, with tea instead.

Really nice sights there... some pics..

At the main gate


this is rally nice pic, right esther!? coz i'm the photographer! wahah!!



oh yes, we attepted to fly a kite.. but not much wind, so it kinda failed


scenic...


A bit of CamWhoring while having a picnic



Was a good day out!



Yup, my day off was good, Thanks esther for hanging out with me yea!


ok, so the last 2 weeks have been emotionally challenging for me...a lot in my mind, and wil share some stuff here, some not really ready to publicly say, but if u want to know then ask me personally.

I realised how bad a situation i am in.. first comes family.. omg, i know i shouldnt be complaining and be thankful for the things i have,.. but omg! everyone in my family has super big flaws which is super irritating... my mum, dad and sis.. and they dont even realise they are doing wrong, or affecting ppl! All the big talk abt advice and morals, when u dont even live up to what u preach, and u expect ppl and ME for the matter to listen and follow.. I will sigh under my breath,shake my head many a times, and get irritated... Y am i stuck with ppl like these...summore my immediate family!

well, i have been trying to drown myself away from things on my mind through ate nights out. especially the last few weekends... but seems many attempts just makes me recollect it.. keep failing... i guess ur nightmares and emo thoughts just comes back to haunt u all the time, no way to run.. when u get so deep into it, u cant hide...

Personally also, i have been trying to find things out for myself...not going to say much here.. onli in private if u ask k.. but i realised i'm not meant to have many things too.. based on situations i'm in, or coz i'm permanently stuck in a place where it wont improve. just have to fight my way out...

ARGH!!! omg.. i am just emotionally overwhelmed now...i cant even work properly! i even have to appear like everything seems alright, but within i'm just crushed with so many thoughts and grieviance.. everything is affected...just hate it...

How i just need someone to listen to me, talk to me about things that is happening to me... and still not judge me after what i have to say.. and not reply with the comment "everyone goes through things like this" coz i freaking dont care.. i am stuck with my problems, so deal with me first!...i just need that shoulder to cry on...

stuck alone...

Hey all

its after 2 weeks from my bday.. and here are some updates...

since my last update... I have been partying quite a bit.. haha...

The weekend of my bday.. friday, Clement brought me out to club.. apparently some KL DJ there.. but he was totally horrible.. however, i got kinda wasted.. oh gosh! bad bad!!! reached home late too.. Thanks clement for looking after me...

On sat, went for Conrad's bday dinner at sharngri-la 'the line'


Me, Wei Loong, Conrad, Marcus



Wei loong & I


Firdaus aka FiFi & I


Hazmi & I





Then after that i left(pang seh-ed..lol) the whole group and went to meet my other frens to club... guilty again.. lolz... but i think we left quite earli coz was a little tired from the night before.. haha...

Ok, so the next day(sun) was Mother's day... brought my Mum out for a nice dinner at Gillmard Village .. Then i went crazy again when clement called me.. after dinner, i met him and we went to Zirca! omg.. first time being there also.. lucky monday i was on off from work. 3 days clubbing! wohoo!!! partying away! and yes all these fo my birthday treat as well!!

ok.. then it was back to work for the week again... and the big party came!!! on friday 15th.. at costa sands Pasir ris where i had my chalet and dinner party..

turn out was great, got 2 chalets and lots of ppl... damn dint take a lot of photos though and not with everyone!! argh!!!

Me and my Big super yummy hazelnut chocolate cake.. it went off really fast!


My family


HSC Band/Alumni band


HSC cell


My poly Clique


SAF Band -batch 77


My hangout buddies!!


Some of my teaching collegues


Childhood friend Matthew


My Cam Whore buddy Esther!




Robin & I


Bernard & I


Clement & I


My buddy benji & I


so some of my friends stayed over and i zonked out around 5am... Met my besti dickson for lunch at this Jap Resturant in E-hub.. then went for movie.. haha. watched Angels and Demons.. Not bad bah..

k, so it was already around 6+ after the movie.. i had another party plan that evening.. haha.. Yes, club again of coz.. with some of my frens..


Ok.. failed attempt on my hp cam..
Me(looking fat), Benjamin, Cheris


Cheris & I... gosh my face is super red...


Ian, Me, Cheris, Shermie.. i think Benjamin is hidden behind! haha...


yea... so thats whats have been happening so far.. cool eh... 1 more party though.. haha.. Kinda big and long.. my band superior said 'i'm the queen of england ah? birthday so long'......so many ppl thought it was my 21st! gosh! thats old for me now! 'well its my 21st birthday rehearsal!" wahahahah!!!

Ok, its a chiong week for me this week.. still with the NDP recording, 2 Welcome ceremonies at istana, Band practices, Sat with NDP rehearsal, Sunday with a concert! wow!!! and i am exhausted already!!! NO!!!..

alrights... this is how much u have missed if u dint come to my party/ parties/ outings! lolz... lots more pictures on my facebook k!

will update soon!...

hey all

Its my birthday! =]

birthday extravegenza started on sat! haha..had a good night out then and of coz meeting 'P'! haha...

Sunday went out with my family and god-bro daniel for dinner.

Daniel & i


my sis and I


Kim & I



Today.. guess its just alright for me though..coz i was at work as usual!.. But my army band batch mates brought me out to a Jap dinner after in town... treated me to a surprise birthday cake too..really sweet.

KokWey & I


Johnathan & I


Victor & I


Wei loong & I


Wei Lung & I


And there's the cake! haha...




ok.. so will have a few more mini parties for my birthday this coming 2 more weekends.. haha.. seems like a rather big one hor! haha...

Hope my 20th yr will be a good one.. =]

Hey all


I finally went out yesturday evening..after 4 days of just staying home and not even looking out of my balcony or window..

I actually planned to have dinner and then maybe club with my clubbing friends as a pre bday outing. but no one was free this weekend.. sobs.. so i almost cancelled out. Lucky 2 ppl said they going clubbing.. yayz.. at least half of the plan...

k, so i met Corin at tanjong pagar and we walked to the club...most of my other khakis were not around last night.. so tagged along with corin. dint really fit in with his friends though.. not sure why... after that we went to the dance floor and we all were dancing.. and for 80% of the time, i just felt kinda alone.. i just look at all his friends and the rest of the ppl around, everyone is coupled up! omg! i'm suchb a loner.. that 2 mins was just horrible, being pushed around by dancing ppl and that thought in my head.

k...anyways... after that.. i met someone though...=] i hope its not going to just be a fling..opps... i did enjoy myself with "P".. yupz.. saved by 'p' from isolation last night. of coz the rest of the evening is 'sensored to my mind'! wahaha!! sound so wrong! haha...

I dint get to meet XiaoQiang there also... he said he was dacing somewhere but it was too crowded..

ok... so its 2 days to my birthday... so round 1(club) done... today is round 2..i wonder what my NS cell is going to do though. then in the evening, myfamily and my god-siblings are taking me out for bday dinner at gilmard village...

yupz.. its gonna be an eventful couple of weeks of birthday stuff.. i hope.. lolz..

Hey all

some of u already know that i was sick over the last few days... came down with fever on monday after my rehearsal at SAFTI...

still went on to work on tuesday for the Jap navy band exchange and the actual DMG performance... i so regreated it though i had no choice...went to the docs that evening and my temperature was 38.9.... damn.. so high!had a terrible gastric too... i came home and it went up to 39.1! argh!!!

was told that if it goes up even more, i may be hospitalised! AND NO! ITS NOT THE SWINE FLU!!!!

k.. fever onli came down yesterday so my whole wednesday was 'baking hot' jon...

feeling a lot better now... my fever is gone.. but the gastirc is still bugging me.. sighz....

ok.. uplodaed this song.. something different after a while.. but its so how i'm feeling now! argh!!!

ok.. so i need to be in tip-top condition soon for my bday! and the few weeks of celebration!