Hey all

its me.. yes i'm still alive lo..
but the blog is dying..

the last 2 weeks have been pretty mundane as usual..
i'm officially out of cash..and have been tapping on money i should not even be touching.. omg... i'm so dead! pay day pls come fast lehs!...

lately i've been in a world of a real unknown.. gosh, i'm doing so many things, but i have no idea for what anymore...i dont regret what i'm doing though..
the time i'm spending with my buddy and my other pals..
but i feel a bit out of focus with things...lets just say i want real things to happen for me soon... not like some expected program at work... something extreme for me, jsut me onli... i need a new change!or more like Something new!

hmmz... my future is still very blured out... it goes nothing future than whats going happen tomorrow.. gosh.. kinda lost with life... Bummer!...

Hey all

the last week has been trerribly tiring... not a lot of work though.. but a lot of chionging and late nights...

I finially finished all my dine-in performances. phew... that was a real dread...

NDP is almost here.. and i am just counting down to the day when its all over. I am usually very patriotic on national day. But being involved in ine this year, i totally hate it now. the many months of training for the big day is actually quite useless to me me though.. i see the lack of proper planning by some people, requires such long rehearsals; it can be done really fast.
thankfully i'm doing it only once in NS.

Sat's rehearsal ended really really late. It was the NE show for the pri 5 students. Wow, they were really really annoying. I totally understand it though. They cant appreciate parades. Laughing at all the funny commands. Sreaming at the cannon salutes. repeating commands after the parade i/c.
well they are kids.. i don think i can even remember what was happening during my pri 5 NE show. Just knowing i reached back at school super late at 11+pm, seeing my dad sitting at the foyer steps to drive me home.(wow, it jsut hit me tat 11+pm then was considered super late =\)

So of coz i chionged on sat night, ... drank a little too much too, was kinda tired and totally pissed about the planning of NDP, i got a little high... got home at 5am. And i had to be back in camp in the late morning on sunday for another presidential garden reception. I was totally not expecting this. My dad knocked on the door at 6.30 am! i was going to scream when i hear the door knock; i just got to bed! but he asked if i needed a lift to work! WOHOO.. save me 1 1/2 hours of travelling and more sleep.. THANKS DAD!

that whole day was totally horrible. i kinda had a really bad hangover which wouldnt go...i onli became better around 7pm! k, so i kinda chionged that night also, to 2 different places summore...but it was ok bah... after that the group of us went to lau pa sat for 'morning supper'. thankfully Yang drove me home.. got back at 6am! wahaha..

Monday was totally sleep day for me =]

Went out on tuesday.
Met with Esther in the morning at sengkang.. went to punggol beach =] was really nice and quiet there..attepmted to fly ourr kite there but the wind wont last.. so we kinda gave up and decided to wade in the water! haha.then we slacked off at compassvale. went to clerk quay to buy some really nice sweets @ Sticky...and slacked off at the pier... some pictures!


@ Punggol Beach


Ms Esther Goh


King of the Rock?..lol


Posing or scraching leg?


The rocks around are super nice lahz..


Off to Clerk Quay



k, evening met up with Wei Jie and Ben for dinner at Ceni...so we decided to watch a movie.. well DVD rather.. watch Marley & Me.... aww!!! sobz sobz.. really nice show...then after, we went to heeren to have coffee..
Haiyo those 2, funny lahz.. nice couple.. =] OH YA, WE FORGOT TO TAKE PHOTO AGAIN!!!!...

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I've been on my own for so long now. i dont have to walk down a street to see what i want, i see it when i'm with my friends; people i'm with. Longing for so many things i know i will never get. i looked in the mirror and assessed myself, and i have accepted the fact of who i am, how i am, what i am. In my head, i tell myself i have to accept myself for my material self. How i look, how i behave, my character, my emotions.

(No, to advertising the shoe, took it at the beach..)

In my heart, it tells a different story. I know i can change the way i am. the spot i am in. I can change the way i look, the way i act, the way i behave.
Something so personal, but one of the hardest things to do in this world.

To me its, me, myself against the world.

Hey all

k, update the old post first...

some pictures with esther on our little outing to Max Branners..



the dessert!!


Sinful indulgence!


Was a nice evening




nothing happening much the last few days though..Sat NDP rehearsal as usual.. with the NE show 1..

i'm on off today.. but super sian, no one to go out with sia... haiz..

Hey all

another long time since i last posted..

eh, have been really busy with work.. Finally SAFday is over on wednesday... now just left with 3 dine-ins and NDP... sadly my saturdays are still going to be burnt coz of NDP stuff.. sighz...

lots have been happening...as usual i became a little emo lately also coz of some social issues i had... very depressed and disheartening lo... but i have to learn how to let go, at the expense of a friendship... its hard, and i dont know how can anyone want to let go friendship. haiz..

ok.. so the last weekend after NDP rehearsal, rushed down for Colin's Bday... some picture updates!

Jonathan, me, clement


Me,Benjamin,Cheris,Matthew,Samuel,(dunno his name),Gabriel


Colin,me,Clement


Me with the birthday boy


realised i looked super red in all the photos? haha..

well due to many reasons... i was really tired from NDP rehearsal and i had quite a number of different drinks.. and coz i got sunburnt also! i look like a tomato!!! so red!!

yea, next few weeks, will be NE shows at marina patform le.. i foresee it will all be long nights.. dunt know if i can go out le.sobz,...


well yest went out with Esther and her Uni mates for a movie and walked around town a bit.. after,we left the group, went to have tauhui at selegie, haha kinda our dinner... Headed down to Esplanade to sit at the pier... really nice there lolz....Then i brought her to max Branners.. had a really sinful waffle dessert and oreo choco drink! wohoo!! sugar high!!! haha.. was a nice evening! yea will upload the photos when i get it from Esther tonight!